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love is strange

2002-10-13 1:43 a.m.

went out with an ex-classmate today.

it's strange but most of the time, people come meet up with me when they're feeling down.

i hope that's a compliment or maybe it's the naive optimism that i offer, not to mention a mountainous load of advice and solutions.

i admit i'm not a good listener. i like to get to the root of the problem and solve it, then get on with life.

my ex-classmate told me about her relationship problems.

she doesn't actually need me to offer any solutions because deep down i think she knows what to do; the problem is the emotional attachment which can be hell to break away from.

i did tell her that it's fate that brought them together but they have to overcome the obstacles together for the rest of the journey. it's tough when only one is trying and the other refuses to.

people these days don't seem to believe in 'for better or for worse' anymore.

it could be the materialism overtaking people's lives or it's simply much easier to give up. facing and overcoming problems is tough, especially when everyone's too busy to notice a hurt feeling or the disappointed tone of someone they love.

or maybe the world is moving to fast. nobody is willing to slow down to mend a broken heart. get over it. move on. it's the survival of the fittest.

so everyone bottles up their hurt, disappointments, fears or they will appear to be weak. their faces turn into stone and slowly their heart follows. soon, the world around them changes into a shade of grey. they scorn people who show their emotions easily, thinking that they are so much stronger themselves when the opposite is true.

we all pretend to be so strong; thinking no one can hear our heart crumbling into pieces.

my heart always flutters with happiness and envy when i see an old couple holding hands and looking deep into each other's eyes.

and i wonder if my future could be filled with such love.

i do hope everyone will be able to attain such love, most certainly my ex-classmate who deserves to be treated better but who am i to judge? maybe his idea of love is just different. love can be so strange.

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